Inspired

This is how I feel lately – like there is something new in the air.  So many people say to us “those are two very lucky little boys” and I am always grateful, I understand the heart behind that - but the truth is that I feel like these two boys have saved my life.  They have injected a new joy into what had begun to feel like a desert in my heart and YES it is very hard and I am tired most of the time BUT I have never felt better!

My head is filled with ways to teach them and lead them and correct them and share my life with them and my heart is filled with new ways to love them every day. So THIS is how it feels to be a Mother!  Yeeehah!

The other day I uploaded about 8 new video clips onto YouTube and I got back an automated message saying “Congrats, your videos are now on YouTube! Nice job haleydecharmoy! Looks like someone’s been inspired lately” - I had a little giggle to myself because I realized that I have become one of those super gushy Moms who thinks everything her children do is adorable and the world simply MUST see it!

I love photographing and videoing the boys – I always joke with Rog and tell him that they will be presenting Top Billing in no time and he just gives me that “You have lost the plot lady – they are going to be too busy playing for MAN UTD” look. We’ll see about that!

I could never understand how women could go on an on about their children – I would often escape and join the guys around the braai, somehow I fitted in better there. Well I am happy to say NOT ANYMORE sister, I totally get it – if you want someone to bend your ear about the joys and frustrations of adopting come and hang out with me! 

This photo cracks me up - this scenario happened all on its own - they scratched in my hair drawer and discovered these rollers stick rather nicely to Max's long hair (they have seen me use them) and then proceeded to act like a Mommy giving a hiding. CLEARLY they find themselves very funny!

Mother's Day

So this was my first Mother's Day and I loved it!  Mother’s day has had a bittersweet taste for me in the past. Yay cause I could celebrate having such a wonderful Mom and Mum in law but also not Yay because it reminded me that another year had passed and I was still not a Mom.  I felt excluded and all the negative feelings that go with that and to cut a long story short - I was always glad when Mothers day was over.

This Mothers Day however was a GAME CHANGER! I was up super early with Max and so fell into a deep sleep when I managed to get him back down again. I woke up to the noise of both boys trying to carry the tray and Rog doing his best to help them not to spill the coffee all over me.  I got the hugest hugs and kisses and lots of offers over who was going to help me open my present. They gave me a beautiful bottle of perfume, which Rog and Tom chose together. Rog said that Tom was VERY fussy and kept saying no and NEXT until they found the right one!

When I told Tom how much I loved it and that they where so clever because my other one was nearly finished he said very confidently “Don’t worry Mom when this one is finished we will just buy you another one!” BLESS HIM! When I put some on later I made sure that I did it in front of them and they where both practically dancing for joy to see me use it – Soooooooo cute.

We went to LINC church and listened to a beautiful blessing of a message by Mark Slevin.  I asked the boys if they wanted to stay with us in the “Big Church” seeing as it was Mothers day and was told a definite “NO – Children’s church please!” Total win win situation – thank you LORD!

After church we headed up to the farm to spend the day with the folks – my mom joined us later and we loved our time together. The boys love the big garden, lovely food and extra attention they get up there.

My short stint as a Mom has given me a new appreciation of my Mom and all that she poured into my life – Mom you are amazing! It has also given me a deep sense of gratitude to God for allowing me to experience the blessing of mothering these two children - I am happier now than I ever thought possible.

Max came running up to me today proud of something he had done. He stuck his lips out as he came closer and shouted, “Kiss Me!” I have no words to describe how that made me feel. Thank you Lord.